Khayt

I am at an age where I should know what I’m doing with my life. Truth is, I’m just a big kid, still trying to figure out what I’m all about. But it’s so much fun finding out!

I’ve always been awkward, and when I was younger I felt very insignificant because of how I looked. My ethnic face, my hulking frame, my overweight body … it all was a recurring masculine theme in my teenage years and I held a lot of jealousy towards pretty much everyone around me. I felt like I faded into the background and was worth nothing. As I type this I find myself crying remembering all that bullshit I put up with.

With a super-low self-esteem I promptly got pregnant to my first boyfriend at 20. I was convinced I would only get once chance at a relationship because I was so hideous. I spent my 21st birthday at Pizza Hut getting labour advice from my mum and my aunt over an all-you-can-eat-lunch.

I knew I was not in a good place, but I was determined not to let my shortcomings and fears pass on to my son. I learned the art of feigning self-confidence; and with it I actually found some. I had to start each day at that point, ready to discover the real me that is buried in my curves. Fuck me, imagine my surprise every morning when I realise that I am the curves. There you go life, NAILED IT *finger snap*

I didn’t know Khayt before we met up for our photo session, but when we met I knew at once I had found a new friend. She’s loving, enthusiastic, beautiful and brilliant. She’s confident and clever, and her personality fills the room with warmth.

I feel so honoured that through this project I am getting to meet so many wonderful women. I think it’s important surround yourself with people who inspire and encourage you, I hope your life is filled with people like that – I know mine is!

x Meagan

Khayt wears:
Black underdress from Ezibuy
Homemade lace skirt
Coat tails by Ann Demeulemeester
Leather Spats made by Khayt’s sister
Standard issue British Navy WWII compass inherited from Khayt’s granddad
Belt and collar ruffle courtesy of Hamilton Operatic Costume Hire
Vintage fur from Hamilton Operatic Costume Hire